December 7, 2018
How many times
Have I died a bloody death?
A deadly death
Death that leaves scars
Death the pushed past lives
Into this one and the next and the next.
Broken nose down the stairway.
Did someone push me?
I don’t know
Just that there is this visceral feeling
“Just that there is this visceral feeling”
how dare you say it that way?
Like a pauper
Like a teenager
Vague and uncaring
You don’t care
You don’t ever care
You have never cared
About me.
A voice criticizes my every move
Angry mean debasing voices
More than one
Warning me
Protecting me.
Around every corner
There is a Murderer
Around every corner
There is a hazard.
Paranoia?
You have reason to be
Death after bloody death
Too horrible to mention
To horrible to forget.