Babies

November 9, 2018

I felt your bliss

For a day or so

Protected inside the womb

Of a family

That existed

Only in my mind

And now I pine for you

As if I had ever lost you

As if you were “real”

And here and in my arms

And now you are not

You were just an idea

A feeling

A passing thought

Between more familiar ones

“What, are you crazy?

Are you nuts?

You don’t deserve it

You will fuck it up

You will be no good

You will repeat the pattern

You will ruin a life

You will cause more suffering

You do not deserve this.”

It was all just a joke anyways

It was never anyone’s intention

To take any of this serious

We don’t really DO in life

You see

We only plan

And hope

And dream

And fantasize

And then we wake up

Again

And go to work

And eat and shit and check things off the list

Like good slaves do

Within the matrix

That we remember

We are in

Sometimes

Like flashes of light

In the dark

And then nothing

But what if we

Began to

Remember

More than we forgot?

That we have been in our own

Self-imposed hell

Until we finally break free

And truly create

Babies

Out of the seeds of the cosmos

We welcome them

Into a world that we can be ashamed of

We ask

Can you fix it?

Can you undo our stupidity?

Of course!

They say

And there are lightening bolts

Of Pure Love

Shooting out of their eyes

Love

That we feel

We will never deserve

Pouring out

Like purple effervescent waterfalls

From their eyes

Of course

They say

Consider it done

Don’t you know?

That is why

We have come?